The (doubtful) Road Ahead

Its been a long time since I blogged. Not much due to laze, but perhaps lack of good ideas to blog on.
So heres a blog, just to blow away the cobwebs ( by an amount h, Lt h->0 , which Bad-Li will want to add).

I've been reading a little too much of the foundation series lately ( by Issac Asimov, for the uninitiated ). Every time I read it, I think all the more about my future, about why I'm here and what I'm to do IIIT. Looking at my batchmates around me, I find that every last one of them have a decent idea of what they want to be. Sir loves robots and electronics, Troll is going to be a teacher, Badri wants a plum job, Smiley just wants a job and Sica, well, shares my predicament.

Linear Algebra classes usually put me into this kind of thinking mood, half because they are boring, and half because my limited (Lt n->0 ) understanding of the subject makes me worry all the more about my future. In the last class, my half-opened eyes, just refreshed by 30 mins of slumber, began to look around at my ECE comrades. I realised that all that most of them were looking forward to was landing a plum 8 lakh opening salary. Many planned for a life in the US to earn all the money that they could ever want while any others, if at all, planned for nearly the same thing in India. Nothing wrong about thinking that way, but, dunno why, I just dont find that kind of ambitiousness inside me.

And then theres the Accounts class. The Prof's a riddle in himself. He first very cleanly convinces me that all the businessmen in the world are crooks and then tells me that I'll truly understand business only when I realise that theres nothing wrong in being a crook. One's got to cheat to be in Business, he says. No way I'll ever start my own business ( if I ever gather enough moolah in the first place).

Perhaps the reason why no job seems to appeal to me is the vicious circle that follows it. Students first work their asses off in school to get into a good college, ditto in college to land a good job, ditto in the job to secure their kids future and their kids just follow in their footsteps. I mean, where does anyone get to have any fun??

The only reason I find to ever work at all, besides sustaining my living, is my love for computers/electronics and the like. But I seriously doubt that I'd be able to find a job that'd nurture these interests of mine. I'd be stuck in a 9 to 5 job , doing something that'll sooner or later reduce to mechanical labour.

This brings me back to the original question: Why am I here / Wot am I doing here in IIIT? It certainly needs an answer, otherwise I'll never find the enthusisam or the drive to do something solid in the next 2 years at IIIT. Wonder whether, if ever, I'll find one.